Saturday, December 20, 2008

i feel...

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

too late. in so many ways.

it's actually happening. and soon. i guess i knew...right? but i didn't believe.

somehow it still hurts. makes me ache and burn. even though i have no right; and have never been able to lay claim to the one i wanted the most.

even though i know we don't belong... even though i know, in regards to me, those eyes would never see more than they saw then... even though two hearts could hardly be less suited...

it still hurts.

life is unfriendly.

Friday, December 5, 2008

tomorrow.

what to do about tomorrow.

how does a year go by so quickly, and still not go by at all?

how have i spent 365 days?
how should i have spent them?
how have they changed me?

364 days have not changed me. one day did.

december 6, 2007

i miss you, dad. like the dickens. are you really not coming back?